i just love it when you r entire family looks at you as an outcast and reject.

for instance, not too long ago i went to my grandmother's funeral, i was looked down upon by everyone and no one really talked to me and if they did, it was "where is your father". why the fuck should i know where he is all the time, and if thats all you people have to say to me than fuck you too. I also love when they decide to talk crap about me when im literally sitting 5 feet away.

So i figured there's no chance that im going to get on there good side, so i decided lets see how much i can piss them off before i leave.

i cant possibly imagine why they still hate me, they dont hold back when they talk about me, so i dont see why i cant hold back when i talk to them. For i am willing to lower myself to their level, for i am willing to make choices other people think they are to good to make. i will say as it is.

oh how i adhore family gatherings, it lets me speak the way i really am haha